I have officially lived in NYC for a month. Is this real? Can't begin to explain how crazy this all is. I'm so happy. Some days are difficult. I miss my family and friends back home. But i'm not homesick. I know this is exactly where I'm supposed to be. I haven't doubted this decision once.
A couple things that I'm getting used too/are so different:
- It's expensive
- walking to work and getting hot. I'm over that (hello Fall)
- living in a smaller place. (going from a 1 bedroom apartment has it's challenges)
- All the choices. I don't hate it. It's just so many that I just go back to what I like and that's always - chipotle
- Learning how to be single
- Not having a significant other when going out( it's just different. I'm getting used to it)
- shoes that give you blisters from walking so much
- not being able to cook like I used to
A couple things that are absolutely wonderful:
- New York City
- Not driving. I don't miss driving at all
- Mary-Cullen. Seriously love having a person up here! She is wonderful and a blessing.
- Being single in the city
- Dating
- Walking around the city. I literally spend every weekend exploring
- my job. I love it
- Not waiting up at night for someone to come home
- Meeting new people
- My apartment location
- Central Park
- Rockefeller Center. Hello Liz Lemon
- My best friend being a train ride away
- shopping, ZARA
If you had told me exactly 10 years ago to this day that I would be living in NYC I wouldn't have been shocked at all. Funny thing about September 25th, 10 years ago to the day I met the guy I dated for almost 10 years. Sometimes I wish I had met him much later in life. But I know there is a reason I met him when I did. I know I need to live life with no regrets.
I still had the same ambition for a while when we first started dating. I don't think I ever lost it. I just think I learned to ignore it. Being in love will do that to you. I'm so lucky to have fallen in love so young though. Being in love is amazing when you are young and have no responsibilities. I stayed in love longer than most people do at that age too. It was wonderful and some days I still think I am in love and will never fall out of it. Our relationship is over though. I think it has been over for a while now. I'm surviving. I'm going to be okay.
I kinda lost my drive and my ambition here in there in the last 10 years. I was so obsessed with making something work that I lost myself. Don't ever becoming complacent with your life. Also don't expect people to change back to the way they were. It's extremely difficult to accept. But it's ok.
I know not everyone gets to move far away and start over when they go through something life altering. I know I'm lucky. It's beyond evident that God works in odd, scary and extraordinary ways. I know that every set back at work, argument, tears, and times of being so unhappy have led to this moment. I am beyond blessed.
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